One of the highlights of my wellness seminar is the focus on gratitude. I have tried throughout my journey to pay attention to the blessings in my life, but sometimes, I forget to think about those things, or I let fear block my view. So tonight, I am going to be mindful of what I am grateful for today and let the sun shine in for a bit.
On this day, I am grateful that I am able to hear my son say his prayers at bedtime with us. He astounds me, as he knows his "Hail Mary" quite well. He loves that prayer, and often wants to repeat it several times a night. While it might be partially a stall tactic, I prefer to look at it as toddler rosaries. Perhaps, he too will be blessed in life. As a mother, could I wish for more? I think not.
I am also grateful for naps. Yesterday was a strenuous day for me, physically and mentally. But I made up for it today with two naps! Oy! I find it weird that I still get tired, but I guess its part of the process. And I am glad that even though I get tired, when I recover, I can do more each time.
I am grateful for my mother. Her selfless support has been endless. I'm sure she's exhausted and stressed, but she doesn't let it stop her from being there for me in whatever way I need. She's an awesome woman, and the best mother a girl could ask for. This week, she is dealing with the loss of a younger cousin, continuing to watch me fight my fight, which I am certain is pure hell for her, and she still maintains her smile and to be a positive example. I can't imagine how she manages to keep going despite her heartache, but she does. She does the best she can despite the difficult circumstances that she is facing, which is pretty amazing if you ask me. God bless her.
I realized I haven't posted my schedule yet this week. Tomorrow, I have the "sad-eral" for my cousin, and I have 2 doctor's appointments. Ah, a long day in North Jersey. Thursday, I have a writing seminar and a pedicure (probably my last for a while, since they are banned during chemo). And friday, I have my port insertion. YIKES! One more hurdle will be down. And that means one week to go till I get to poison any stray cancer. Take that you little bastard cells!