A quick medical update: while I had another fever last night, it stayed low-grade which meant that I got to stay home. We'll chalk that up as one in the win column. Today, I heard that my blood cultures are all still negative which means it was either viral or just a random side effect of the neulasta shot. Either way, as long as it gets better, I don't care. Fingers crossed that the fever stays away again. Tonight is the first night since Sunday that I am completely fever free! Yippee!
It's getting too close to treatment now to screw around with complications. They will decide on friday if I am well enough to have treatment. I know that the treatment is most effective if I can stick to the every two weeks cycle. So I'm just thinking healthy thoughts and praying for the best.
One nice side effect is that I am noticing my son is learning compassion and kindness at an early age. Today, he wanted to look under my hat. I told him that I cut my hair to look like Daddy's and let him look. He rubbed my peach fuzz and smiled. Then he gave me a hug amd said "I really love you Mommy". I am hoping this whole experience leads him in a positive direction. I hope that he learns to be kind when others aren't feeling well. I hope that he learns not to judge others by their appearances. I hope he learns to never quit no matter how hard things get in life. I hope he learns to love what's inside people, and not worry about hair or other such superficial things. I hope he just grows up to be a wonderful, compassionate, strong person. Now that would be a worthwhile side effect!