Sunday, June 26, 2011

down day.

Eh, I am feeling down today. It's one of those days. I had some wonderful visitors today, got to shower, etc. But I was still feeling tired, frustrated and a little scared. No real specific reason. It's just one of those days. Just feeling cancer-y. Blah.

Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Here's the schedule for the week:
-tomorrow, follow up w Dr Cohen, the reconstructive surgeon (here's hoping one or more of the drains come out-fingers crossed)
-tuesday, visiting nurse visit
-wednesday, follow up w Dr Warden, the breast surgeon

Sorry to not be feeling particularly inspirational today. I'm sure you all know it's part of the experience. Sometimes, the very thought of being a cancer patient just sucks. Even if things are going ok, the heaviness of it weighs on me sometimes. It makes me mad or sad or scared.

I have a lot of reasons to be hopeful. But sometimes, it's hard to feel positive. I know I had an awesome anethesiologist, but I wish she could have knocked me out for a year and a half until this nonsense is all over.

Alas, no dice there.


  1. I am thrilled that you are home, and coming along. I'm sorry you had a down day; but perhaps tomorrow will be much better. I just got home a couple of hours ago from Kentucky-it was in short, wonderful. Just what I needed.......I will write more tomorrow-hang in there. I know how you feel with having surgery, and recovery. I don't know how you feel with having the cancer, but it is gone, and now you can look to a healthy and happy life and future. Keep your chin up; if you need me, never hesitate. I am here for you always. Love, prayers, and gentle hugs always.


  2. "CRACK IS WHACK!" Just thought you needed a smile. ;o)

  3. Hang in there my friend!! These moments are temporary but normal!! Love ya, Jackie

  4. I’m allowing you this temporary diversion from your ordinarily inspirational comments. You should know that I just spoke to Thomas Edison. He told me that he had no idea when he invented the incandescent light bulb that a beacon of hope and inspiration could shine so brightly as your beacon. He also told me that he cannot take credit for you. You are God’s creation and as such, your accomplishments are limitless.