Sometimes, it seems like the journey I am on is flying by. Other times, it feels like time stops cold and the end of this nonsense will never arrive. It's a strange feeling when you feel like you are running and standing still at the same time. I guess this is what hampsters feel like when they run on those wheels.
I am almost to the last AC cycle. It's a wonderful milestone because, truth be told, AC sucks. It just plain does. I know it's doing its job because it does quite a number on me. I can't imagine little cancer cells surviving this nonsense.
Given next week is my last AC infusion, it will be cause for celebration! And what better way to celebrate than at a wedding? Next Friday is a wedding that's a long time coming, and I cannot wait to share in that joy with my family. It will be doubly sweet knowing that I will be halfway through my chemo. but that is not the focus of the day. The focus is on those two wonderful people who have finally sucked it up and decided to tie the knot, making a "legal" family of one that has existed for many years now.
Life keeps happening despite treatment. As we all know, life has its up and downs. These past few weeks have been a reminder of this. Between hurricanes, watching friends dealing with their own struggles, my daily battles in chemo, I have to remember that even in difficult times, there are good things. In the midst of chaos, babies are born, couples take their vows, and two year olds amaze us. There is a part of me that would love to fast forward through the next two months, but the truth is, there are some truly beautiful moments that I would miss if I did. So I keep on going, and I try not to miss the good stuff along the way.
I'll steal from good ol' Ferris Bueller: Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.